What You Really Want

I haven’t met anyone who can read minds, at least I don’t think I have. If I ever do, I’d like to prance that person around, passing by people and picking out those I’d like to take a look into their thoughts. What are they really thinking? What do they really want? Knowing your want is easy even if you don’t share them with another soul, but knowing someone else’s is a totally different story. We often assume we know what someone else wants because we like to believe whatever we want has to be the same as someone else, but that’s not always true.

Back in 2013, I wrote my first book, Bachelor Not For Sale, and I was excited. Who knew I could write anything? Well, I did because whatever you want to do is in you. It may be buried deep and you may have to wait until the desire surfaces in order for you to follow the path that leads to it, oh, but it’s still there. When I wrote that book and then two others (A Designed Affair & A Perfect Combination) making them books 2 and 3 of that series, I had in mind a series about men who were fine, successful, rich and highly sexual. I wanted those things to be what my male characters would consider the most important things in life to them. I loved writing ‘The Bachelor Series’ and thanks to readers, I have appreciated all the feedback and love for Duron Knight and his two friends, Michael Bailey and Tyrone Davis. Those men led the lives of bachelors that some men only dream about, but in the end, they found women who made them reevaluate their lives and discover that love was more important than lust. Is that so, you ask? Yeah, it is so, but the path was paved with a lot of lust and great sex! Women, I know you can relate because though we’d all love to find that man who will love deeply and love us for life, we know we want that great sex and these guys brought that. Then there was book 4, “Love at Last”, in the series which I just released and all that changed.

Brian Knight is the brother of Duron Knight from the first book in the series, “Bachelor Not For Sale”. He is totally different than his brother who took pride in beating his chest to celebrate the number of women he’d bedded. Brian, on the other hand, was different. He had his share of casual relationships, but deep down, he only wanted ‘The One’. He wanted to love until it made him think of nothing, but that woman who would make his world complete. He was the brother that wanted to find a woman to give his heart to and let that love and intimacy create a world where she was his main priority and even if he was approached by a different beautiful woman each day, his love for that one woman would be so strong, he would only have eyes for her. Brian knew that the ultimate passion came with giving his all to the right woman. He never planned on going to a football game and finding the love of his life.

Brian met his equal while at a football game and he thought his life was perfect until a day came when she didn’t want to see him anymore and he didn’t get an explanation of why. to him, their relationship was perfect. He had been her first, teaching her all the pleasant and delightful places on her own body that brought her the most satisfaction when she was kissed, touched, massaged and made love to. He enjoyed not just her body, but the whole experience of being with her and then she was gone.

Sherry Braxton, though younger than Brian by several years, thought that she’d found the perfect man who treated her like a queen until an overheard conversation caused her to run away and stay away. It wasn’t until after, that she discovered she was pregnant with Brian’s child. She was hurt and felt betrayed by him and never told him about the baby. Somehow, he found out and she looked up and who was standing before her? Yup, it was Brian all the way from Atlanta now in Baltimore looking for an explanation and falling in love at first sight when he saw his daughter for the very first time. What ensues next is Brian and Sherry struggle with deep-rooted feelings that never went away. They dance around the love they still feel while focusing on Brian’s relationship with is daughter. Something else was in play and it was the kind of love no one should ever walk away from; it was that kind of love that people wait a lifetime for. Brian knew it from the start and knew that Sherry was the love of his life. He let her slip away once, but if it’s up to him, he won’t make that mistake a second time. Brian wants love and he only wants it with one person, Sherry Braxton. Can he finally have a love that lasts a lifetime? Can he now have love at last? Check out my new release and find out if that’s what’s in the cards for him.

 

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Who you gonna call?

124079-Think-For-YourselfI went to a business expo and one of the speakers, who was a fellow author, talked about people she comes across on a daily basis who have shied away from following a dream or a passion. Nowadays, it’s hard to convince people to stay the course and follow their dreams because there is always some naysayer on social media or some other platform who has nothing else to do with their day other than to tell you how much your dream or goals suck. You find yourself making an honest attempt and putting in the hard work only to feel let down when someone throws shade on your dream. She spoke about her path to writing and then publishing and how shock set in the moment she read her first review. She vowed never to write another novel because of how nasty and cruel the review was while other people seemed to love it. For three years, she put off writing another novel until her son asked her what was taking her so long. She told us it was words from her son that encouraged her to pick her pen back up again and read. He asked her why would she let a few nuts in a barrel of millions control what she does with her life and whether she ever writes again. He told her he was proud of her for doing what some people only dream of doing and because she took that first step and published her first book, he looked forward to reading her next. The next day, she started work on her second novel and now she is seven novels in and loving the path.

When it was my turn to introduce myself and talk about what I do, write romance novels, I talked about my path to writing and how, even now, I don’t let any of the reviews of my books taint my decision to write or not write. I love all of the reviews, good and bad, but what I’d like for people to do is learn to make a decision about what you like or don’t like on our own. We are becoming a people who take to other’s to decide what choices we’ll make in our lives. Who you gonna call?

I’ve always said like what you like if you decide that’s what you like and not like whatever you decide isn’t for you, but make it your own decision. People don’t know how to think for themselves anymore, but they wait to see what the masses think. I wanted to see a movie with a friend once and he refused to see it because he heard it was awful and based on what people were saying on the internet, he wouldn’t waste his money. I went to see the movie anyone on my day off and I laughed the entire movie it was so good. When it came out on DVD, I bought a copy just for him and we watched it one evening and you know what? He LOVED it! He was all set to not like this actor because other’s told him he wasn’t funny, but I tell you at one time I thought I was going to have to get some tissues he was crying fro laughing so hard. I told him next time just go see it and not make a decision based on someone who doesn’t live, think or act like you do. Be your own person!

One good example is Kim Kardashian. Now I see how social media has a love/hate relationship with Kim, but you can’t knock her hustle and thankfully, she doesn’t give two shades about what anyone has to say about anything. By way of those who love and and hate her, trust that someone is watching everything she does, buying what she sells and promotes what she says by tweeting and retweeting her every word and that’s what it’s about. It’s about going through life not allowing someone else dictate what your next moment or next move will be. i respect her for her game and however she chooses to increase her bank account, I say go for it. As others are sitting home and complaining about the next picture she puts up or the next wild thing her husband does, she’s throwing up the finger as she heads into the bank to check her new balance! I’m the same way when it comes to my writing. You can’t write or live to please everyone. For me, if I love what I wrote then I have mad love for it and nothing anyone can say or do will ever, ever, ever change that. See, the way my self-esteem is set up, I am my own woman and I dance to the beat of my own drum and it makes me happier than I’ve ever been in my life. Miserable people are miserable and like to spread their misery because no one finds anything about them to like so they want to share how much they don’t like anyone or anything else. It’s perfectly okay. Who you gonna call?

I look at our youth of today and they can’t survive without everyone loving and liking everything they say and do and if they are not the popular one’s, they look for a way to tear other’s down. You have to find your life is worth living, no matter what someone else things about it. Just do you, boo boo! You will find that when you walk through life not giving a hoot about those who have a problem with you, you’ll spend it trying to always make them happy. I live for me, yet I respect everyone’s desire to live their life their way in their own space. I pick a movie to see because I want to see it. I read a book because I love reading and none are perfect, but all are someone’s hard work. I drive the car I want because I like it and if you don’t, I have no problem driving by you. I’m currently buying a new house and buying it where I want to live because the bank said yeah, you can do that girl and so, yeah I’m doing it! For the few people who said why would I move so far from work and my answer is because I want to. If you don’t visit me now, should I not expect you now that I’m moving so far away? Yeah, let me take a lifetime and think on that one. I didn’t make these decisions based on making a million phone calls and asking someone what I should do. I did it because you only live once and for this one life I’m living, I’m going to do it my way. Who you gonna call?

When I choose the next book to write and I put it out, I feel excited and happy that I’ve made another achievement, doing something that I’m very passionate about and I do it thankful for those who decide to read my novels. You don’t have to, but you choose to and I hope you continue to do so. All of my books are my favorites and my most favorites change according to the day. Today my favorite four of my own novels are

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Now, this list will change tomorrow based on how I’m feeling, but trust, I love every single book I’ve put out and I choose what to write based on what I decide to write about and how I want to write it. I’m like Kim Kardashian, while some sit home and critique my art, I’m actually following my dream and achieving some goals while other’s choose to sit home and not chase any and that’s okay too. Who you gonna call?

Who am I gonna call? No one because when I make a choice or a decision, I easily live with it because it came from my heart.

Happy living 🙂

Cheryl

 

The Reason Why I Write

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I learned a lot about myself after Prince passed away. I learned that what I write and pretty much what I do, I do because I want to and not to please anyone else.  How did I learn this about myself from Prince? Prince was an enigma, a puzzling kind of character. There were lots of things he could have done to follow the status-quo and been like everyone else, but he didn’t choose that route. Prince chose to be Prince. He dressed in a way that people would normally question a man’s sexuality, but women found him sexy and I’m no exception to that. He wore a perm and puffy shirts, high heeled shoes sometimes higher than I would wear and he once even wore a pair of pants with the behind cut out so that his actual behind showed through. That was hot! He was Prince and he was one of a kind.

I liked that he wrote the kind of music that he wanted to write and he didn’t care if some liked it and others didn’t; he was content with putting out what was on his mind to put out at any given time. That’s how I feel about my writing and it’s why I continue to write no matter what. I have seen people all over their social media accounts gripe because someone leaves them a bad review on their book. My response to that is don’t read it. I understand we get into this not just to write, but to make money from what we put out there. Anyone who states otherwise is lying to their audience and to themselves. To some people ratings are everything. I’ve had people inbox me and email me offering me a free rating for free copies of my books or for a small fee. I didn’t bite nor will I ever.  The reason why I write is because I love to tell a story.  Some people like my books, others don’t and they have every right to do so, but I don’t let anything negative keep me from continuing with my plight to write a new novel every time a new storyline strikes me.

My latest release, “Un-Break My Heart” was touchy because I wondered how to I spin a story about a man who died and his best friend ends up falling in love with his wife. I know that in the minds of most, because the wife was married to his best friend, she is now and forever off limits. Some see it as crossing a forbidden line whether the husband has passed away or not, but I see things differently.  In “Un-Break My Heart” Dr. Mackenzie Ellis thought  she was living the perfect life and that perfection died the day she received the word that her husband, Kyle was killed in the line of duty while protecting another family. Her heart was broken and she was settling into a life that she knew still had to go on, but she was planning to mourn forever thinking no man would ever be able to replace her Kyle. Surprising herself, the man who made her heart beat again was someone close to her and turned out to be the man who had been her husband’s best friend. Should I have stayed away from a storyline like that because the masses would say that they should never cross that line. I say you should follow love wherever it leads and to whomever it leads you to. That friend wouldn’t risk taking his feelings for her for granted knowing the impact it could have on those around them, especially the family of the husband who passed way. I want ahead with the story because it’s what I wanted to write about. I love pushing the envelope.

I told the story and I tried to do so in a way that the decision for the two of them wasn’t an easy one and it should not have been. They should have struggled with the feelings that were developing and even after they were intimate, there should still be some reservations and I told that side as well. “Un-Break My Heart” is a true testament that you may not always be able to turn away from love coming from any direction.

When I started on this path, I wondered what I would write about past the first book. I didn’t know I would be three years in and 18 novels later and still going at it strong. I’m not a rich woman from writing all of these books, but there is a great level of satisfaction every time I look at one of my books with my name scrawled across it.  I enjoy getting emails and inbox messages on social media from people who read them and tell me how much they enjoyed them. That’s the reason why I write. I do it first for me and I write what I want to write and I pray that with each novel, I am improving on my writing skills.  I do it second for those who need that “Calgon take me away” kind of moments. I’ve read many books over the years just to escape everyday life and to take my mind to a place of peace and happiness which is what I found in the stories I read. My books sell pretty good and I’m thankful for that. I told myself that even if I was the only person who bought a copy of my own book, I wouldn’t let that keep me from staying on this path. Writing, formatting, editing and publishing a book is not easy work at all and for all that I put into getting a book out, that’s enough to make me smile. I remember that I write the kind of stories I want to write and if someone likes it also, I’m happy and if not, I’m still happy because I accomplished something major the minute I put the book out for the masses to read.

Im thankful that I have a reason to write other than money because if it was all about that, I wouldn’t be doing it.  One day perhaps I will be a million dollar seller and if so, I’ll be excited and looking forward to another million dollar seller, but until that day, I’ll continue to write because I like to write and hopefully there is someone who likes to read what I write. I’m not as perfect a writer as others and I know I can still use a lot of work, but I put my all into every book and if they seem different than what the masses are putting out, that’s fine as long as each day when I rise, I smile knowing I accomplished something others only dream about.

I’ve decided to follow Prince’s lead and stand on my path alone and stay the path whether what I write is well received or not. I’m having fun writing and putting out what I want to put out and for that, I’m a happy camper.  If you have a dream or a goal, don’t let anything keep you from following that dream or achieving that goal. Do what you do for you first and for others second. You’ll feel a personal sense of satisfaction when you can smile at what you’ve done and say, “Job well done”!!!!!

Take a look at my new release at Un-Break My Heart. Be on the look out for what’s coming up next because trust, there is a new book already in the making.  There is no stopping this train as long as I can still write and as long as the vision for new storylines continue to be fed to my mind.  I’m ready for more…are you?