Well, another book has been added to my list of published novels and I’m still as excited as I was when I released my first book back in April 2013. I still smile bright when I push the button to release yet another romance novel.
Sometimes when I write, I add a little of me and my story here and there, but not with this one. This new release, “I Can’t Let Go”, isn’t a personal story at all. I’m not married, haven’t been stepped out on and had to deal with whether to stay or not to stay. The only one of my books that has a real personal, me-like touch to it is “Bossy”. When people ask me if any of the stories I write are true or are they about people I know, I always say no, but that may or may not be true. There is always a little bit of someone when an author pens a novel. In my novel, “Bossy”, she is all me – not her life story, but her personality is pretty much me. I even made sure we had the same initials to keep that connection between Cassidy Bostic and Cheryl Barton, me.
In, “I Can’t Let Go”, I tried to dive into the story behind what kind of love makes a woman stay with a man who has hurt her, not physically, but emotionally. I’m not a believer in any woman staying after being physically abused, but I straddle the fence when it comes to an indiscretion. How far did it go? How long did it go on? Did the indiscretion produce any children that were kept a secret? Was the indiscretion with someone the other person knew? A friend? A relative? These and more are considerations to make in any relationship when you have to decide whether it can survive someone stepping out.
Carter Garrison was a man deeply in love with his wife, Sienna, but he made a bad choice. He got caught up in the limelight of hanging out with and being included in as a friend of a professional athlete who was known for cheating on his wife and in his case, the wife was good with it as long as it didn’t interfere with the life they had together. Carter knew Sienna wasn’t that type of wife, but he went with it anyway. To his credit, his act of stepping out lasted for few minutes before he realized how wrong it was and how he shouldn’t be in that situation with anyone that wasn’t his wife. He could have done what so many others do that we read about in the media everyday – he could have kept the incident to himself. He decided to tell Sienna and suffer the consequences and hope they could stay on tract as husband and wife. Sienna had a different idea. Any indiscretion is a problem and it didn’t matter the size or length of time, it was wrong. She tried to I’ve with it, tried counseling, but the image of the only man she’d ever loved and given herself to had hurt her in the worse way. She couldn’t shake it and had a hard time forgiving it, so her answer? She packed up, left Carter and divorced him. Her only problem was she did it out of spite and in the heat of the situation. The only way for her to deal with it and be okay with her decision was to avoid any contact with him after the divorce. That worked only for a time.
Eighteen months later at a wedding of a friend, Carter and Sienna see each other and sparks fly immediately. With one glance, they each remembered how deep their love had been and questioned if being apart forever was the answer for them. True, he made a mistake, but was it a mistake that could be forgiven? Some would say yes and some would say no. What are those things that you weigh against an indiscretion to determine if it’s something you would forgive or not? How easy is it to forgive and then live your life wondering if it will happen again? A bigger question is, how deep is your love?
A while back, everyone was up in arms when Jay-Z released an album which alluded to him stepping out on Beyonce. Before that, Beyonce release an album that referenced “Becky with the good hair” and the world went crazy about the possibility of him stepping out on her. Then there was the fight between Jay-Z and Solange on the elevator and the word decided that was because she found out he was cheating on her sister. No one knows for sure what went on at any time other than Jay-Z and Beyonce, but that didn’t stop the tongues from wagging with stories of their own about what it all mean. Even if he did step out, why is it anyone else’s concern if she decided to forgive and move on AND have two more children by him? Why do we care? I thought about that as I wrote, “I Can’t Let Go”. What does it matter if a man or woman decides to stay with a cheating spouse if the only people impacted are the two of them? What about forgiveness? Is there such a thing after cheating? I believe there is and so does Carter Garrison. His hope in, “I Can’t Let Go”, is that he can convince Sienna that the love they one shared is still there and though he messed up, she is still the only woman for him.
Take a look inside of “I Can’t Let Go” and decide for yourself if the kind of love Carter and Sienna share is worth saving and worth a second chance.
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